Monday, August 28, 2006
first i am gg to introduce my one dearest ....
* the guy who help me carry as much burden as ever
* the guy who really goes thru alot of things with me
* the guy who is really good, nice, sweet, caring and dote on me
* the guy who i can trust him with all my heart (100%)
* the guy who can lend me his dependable and real comfortable shoulder so that i can
rest on it when i am tired
* the guy who will nag at me when i cough a little, sneeze a little and don eat ..
* the guy who is becoming naughtier but claim he still beri good and nice.. LOL
* the guy who is really gentle to me...
* the guy who is very impt to me and the guy i don wanna lose
* the guy who will always hold on to my hand and never let go.
* the guy who always act cool.. hahha
* the guy who i really love a lot alot... my unlimited happiness...
* the guy who is anything and evertything that i can ask for
THE GUY IS MY ONLY LOVE -> MR ANG CHAY HENG SHANE
Saturday, August 05, 2006
me n bbq in his car.. so comfty and BIG!!! feel like zzzz.. haha
me n BBQ!!! haha..
He is My Best BUDDY!!!! MR JEREMY aka BBQ!!! NO. ONE mR NICE GUY!!!!
the big feast me n bbq are having.. NICE!!!
is poDDy.. sitting on my lap.. hahaha..
he is Mr poddy ~~~ so CUTE!!!
is coco again.. she is so cute xD
This is my neighbour dog - ms COCO
so tired... just back from outside.. today at least i am not spending the whole lonely afternoon myself.. haha.. we went to tk poddy to JE for some basic grooming like cut hair and wash up etc.. after we deposit poddy at the pet shop, we went to nearby hawker centre and eat.. wow.. bbq order lotsa food, we shared carrot cake, and chicken rice, after the meal he went to buy goreng pisang and fried tapioca.. nice!!! everything was damn tasty.. and somemore is on BBQ treat!!! haha.. he also said that he gg to treat me to eat steak hor!!! rmb it BBQ!!! hahaha...
after eating we went to nearby to walk walk, and i saw a bag, so i brought it.. haha... den we went back to sit in the car and mtv, chat this n that and also, we tk lotsa pic tgt.. and bbq once again, act cute for me to tk.. haha.. i feel kinda happy and comfortable ard him.. it has been like half a yr since we meet up... he become more shuai le.. compare to the past.. so BBQ don complain i din say u shuai ok? haha.. intending to to his npcc national day parade de.. but my irritating mother call and call and ask me to go home to prepare to went dinner with them.. but when i reach home, no one was at home lo.. mummy lie to me say that she at home.. wad the... why must bluff me? cant i jus go out on sat to hv fun? tmd!!!! hahaha... anyway i am so happy that bbq treat me so nice and good like b4 and alway tell me as long as i am happy.... recenlty i feel so lucky cox many ppl tell me the same thing.. as long as i am happy... hahaha.... gg to zzzz le... nightz xD
Friday, August 04, 2006
today wake up at around 10 plus cox of stomach ache... the moment i wake up... wow... BBQ CALLED!!! kinda surprised to hear from him lo.. den he asked me for to go lunch and also go accompany him to trim poddy hair.. so long din see poddy le.. * EXCITED * later i gonna take lotsa pics with poddy cox i am podday no. 1 fans !!! hahaha...
oh yah.. ytd kaya called and tell me he is at suntec fountain... he say when he saw the fountain he think of me.. maybe my face look like fountain? hahaha.. den he keep asking me to listen to the back ground.. i cant hear clearly ... den i ask him wad he want me to listen to.. he say he dedicated a song for me... hahaha.. so funny lor... den he go on saying wanting to ask me out for shopping etc today... he also mention abt the promise again.. he say he gg to buy me my sunflower on v.day and i am gg to be his gf if i happen not to hv a bf that time.. seriously, this is the first time i met such a guy like him.. i told him i hv bf le.. but he say maybe might break up b4 v.day.. shit him..
kaya is the most shld i say brave guy that i ever met? hahaha.. he really dare to express his feelings and really craps a lot esp with me..
ytd nght was in foul mood.. very bad mood.. until one sms by mr ok kinda cheer me up he says this: ok.. i see. i already told you i will not always say ok le ma.. my ok need to deoends on situation one. if you imagine i say you cant go out or meet up with kayathen how would u feel. you might not feel good ma. i don wan spoil your friendship because of me. not i dont care for you. my caring is jus diff way. i not just a normal guy you know. i can tell u i am diff from other guys. you think i feel good when i know u went out at so late hours. if you tell me i sure say not ok.. hope u don be influence by other ppl.. i will show it to i reallys loves u ok.. but need sometimes cox i dont meet ya much... know u might think too much.. nvm ba.. let this matter drop... hope u can understand what i say...
after that, he call me and tok to me till his break end and go back to do his duty.. poor mr ok...
i guess i must really try my best to be a good gf.. i think i am jus a bad gf who is not considerate enough... argh.. i must get gg.. bbq is reaching.. XD
today feels so irritated, moody and unhappy... i dont know why... but after hearing what choco say.. i began to ponder... after seeing how kaya treat me and what kaya say... i begin to shaken... begin to doubt shane again.... i start to think, he dont care abt me de.. he don bother abt me etc.. started to think that he will jus be like lun.. suddenly don like me, dumped me and go for other girl...suddenly lost all my faith in r/s again...
i told myself, don care le... don care.. but whole day i was waiting for him to msg me.. stupid girl me... i saw shan blog abt the unlimited happiness.. i also want... after so many months of unhappiness.. i finally feel unlimited happiness for these few days.. and these unlimted happiness is wad chcocolaterettes and shane gv me...
JACE!!!!! pls believe in him... pls don doubt him again... the beginning is always the hardest.. and when come to r/s... i jus not that smart when i come to r/s... i tends to think too much... i also don wan d e.... but jus cant help it...
seriously, what i can is that, lun is the guy i ONCE LOVED in d past.. and shane is the one i like now.. he is my present and might be my future... so i shall not do that again...
p.s": i am so sorry ....
Thursday, August 03, 2006
now is 4.52am and i still at mac... kaya pei me go mac find woan woan at 1.30am...i really appreciate kaya pei me in the wee hours of the morning.......he really beri nice.. walk to my house and help me carry heavy laptop to pioneer mall find woan woan.....hee.. then at mac.. we were slacking den kaya went to order 1 dbl cheese burger and apple pie... den he treat me apple pie.. so touched.. haha.. den he go on asking me want eat ? wan eat? and so i gv in.. i eat kaya de dbl cheese burger after eating the apple pie.. den i tell kaya i wan eat fries and nuggets.. so he went to order a nuggets meal upsize and one more dbl cheese burger... haha.. i ate so much and kaya was so shocked that i am such big eater... after eating... i and kaya talk abt many things.. many many things...
this is my blog... i really wan to write abt how i feel but somehow... i cant blog what i really feel le.. sian... think shld open another blog for myself.. one blog is for happy stuffs, and the other blog is for thoughts and sad stuffs. hahaha..while talking to kaya..... suddenly, that feeling come again... i was tired i think becox i was too tired so i suddenly think of him again... look back the past.. the sour feels again... and think abt the present... sense of security - what i lack of.... i am somehow afraid.. but i don know what my fear is about... i dont know how to say it... erm...kaya say i still love him alot but i dont feel that i love him alot or wad.... jus don love him anymore..REALLY!!!!! i already PUT DOWN!!!!!!! becox i scare the history repeat itself....... get wad i mean? when i think of what happen.. so sad... hao bu rong yi de lai de kuai le wo bu xiang shi qu... yah... hahaha.. kaya is massaging for me... and he keep asking me to call him rain.. oh RAIN.. RAIN RAIN GO AWAY COME BACK ANOTHER DAY!!! HAHAHA... his massaging SUCK@!@ that is better.. haha... THANKS TO KAYA!! OPPS IS RAIN!!! HAHAHA... i will upload a pic of mr kaya later xD xie xie for accompanying me the whole night and morning... hahaha....
he is shane ANG CHAY HENG - MR OK OK OK XD
me n woan woan XD ("V") her so much
me ~~ cocktail xD
after the feast ~
CHOCOLATERETTES ROCKS!!! ("V")
CHOCOLATERETTES ROCKS!!! 4 - in - love - with each other
been toking and smses with MR OK everyday.. hee.. he is so cute .. esp the qns he ask.. hahaha... finally is friday now... left sat n den sun... can meet up with him le.. hahaha... today i think he is pretty tired cox he has a long and tough training almost everyday and also.. we alway chat till so late.. i think he let of sleep.. hahaha... i was so happy and feel so xing fu over these few days... cox i am able to meet up with ber they all and also tok to mr OK.. hahaha... when he say he like me more n more.. i was so happy.. becox of his ok ok ok.. mk me feel that he dont really bother abt where i go and who i went out with.. but nvm.. at least got freddom and from the way he nag me at times it show that he really cares abt me.. hee XD ok don enough abt mr ok le... hahaha..
CHOCOLATERETTES this is a name i finally thought of to call the 4 of us... hahaha .. i REALLY LOVE ALL OF U LOTSSSS... and recently, we keep meeting up.. and it was fun everyday to see u all.. hahaha..
while CHOCOlaterettes was having fun.. the other side.. KH is begining to face many probs.. first is me n ws.. now is sl n jj... jj hv been really depressed.. and sl is getting sad too..
ok come back to our CHOCOLATERETTES outing on 020806 .. hee XD after school, i n ber meet up and tk train to bugis, and we arrange to meet shan n woan inside the train at the last cabin... but hor.. ber made a mistake.. she think that the first cabin is the last cabin and den we went into the train... hahaha.. den after realise we made a mistake, so we tried to shift from cabin to cabin inside the train.. haha.. but the train was quite packed so kinda hard for us to move... so our cute ber come out with an idea of geeting out of the train and move as fast as possible at the yellow line and get into the train as soon as the doors close.. hahaha..but in the end.. haha.. the train door closes and we are outside the train.. HAHAHA.... anyway in the end we managed to go bugis tgt.. haha.. we went to swensen to eat.. we order fish n chip, cray fish pasta and chicken baked rice.. as for the desset we order... haha.. 3 create - ur- own sundaes and woan order choco crunch.. hahaha.. we all were taking pics with the ice cream, and talking and joking n crapping.. haha .. so fun.. after that went bugis shop an walk around and went to far east ... shan brought a slim vintage belt at 15.90 and i brought a thicker kind of vintage belt for 29.90.. hahaha.. den we went to take neo prints.. wad a fun days... hahaha.. and the 3 girls brought themselves heels n wawa shoes.. hahaha.. CHOCOLATERETTES ROCKS!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
02.08.06then iUp till today then i know what r/s are we... all the while i tot i and him was buddy... after i confess to him and he confess to me back.. den i tot he want to remain as buddy so these 2 days... i tot he was still my buddy.. but i was too blur cox i dint saw the hint he gave me.. obviously i was pondering over.. if we werer buddy.. then why the way u talk to me was different from buddy.. and also when u ask me one week wish to meet u how many times.. i was kinda surprised.. hahaha.. till today wilth the help of my vanilla den he finally mk clear to me.. hee..
today - J and S from buddy become bf and gf... hee... i feel abit blur till now.. a bit dreamy... suddenly our r/s changes.. haha.. but i am trying to be a good gf .. and i really hope he will reassure me and gv me a sense of security...
i am kinda happy now.. and i am looking forward our first date on sunday.. haha... with woan n ber joining us to find shan shan do survey.. hahaha...
p.s: hope this will be my longest r/s i ever had.. let it be years rather than months... * pray hard *
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Chapter 2A really like B.. and A scare that A will lose such a person like B... A was getting luckier cox B make her feel this way... B was quiet alway let A talk non stop and A appreciated that.. one act as a listener and one is the sender... but wad makes A confuse is that.. sometimes A feel like A and B is couple but sometimes A feel like they are more towards buddy.. neither she know what B wants... Is B the one for A? The past of B that B dint mention to A sometimes makes A feel like knowing but dosent hv the courage to know .. anyway is jus the past.. ppl do changes and move on from the past right? something is better for u not to know than to know.. will one day the feeling of B to A faded? maybe it might... i also dont know although i was the story writer..p.s: this is a story series i am writing... jus sudden urge to write short story.. haha.. but my writing skill suck.. well it will improve de.. hee xDenjoy the chapter 2 ok?
Chapter 1
seriously, A dont know who A is to B...what is their r/s? i also dont know when A ask me...are they best friends? or more than just best friends? A need reassurance.. cox she is that kind of person who lacks of confidence, lack of security and also jus got over a broken r/s... although B treat her quite good. but somehow, she dont hv much faith... when B tells A that cant she see he did treat her different from other girls? A really dont know... but what she needs most was... REASSURANCE!!!!
is things gg on btwn the both of them that simple? or it is gg to get complicated? all of us dont know the answers. as it is only the beginning ... no one can be sure of what is gonna happen... let stay tune and find out ... to be continue..
Monday, July 31, 2006
i am happy ... very happy.. tonight was a drastic change ... from confusing ... to feel like giving up.. den to kaya.. who i think he is joking is actually serious... and den the magic moment came and change me.. from a quite moody girl to a happy girl.. i feel so lucky and happy now...
four words changes everything.. haha.. erm... i was proud of myself.. now a burden is off my shoulder and need not go retest also a burden off.. now my major burden coming up... my final year EXAMS!!! i hope i can really pass and hope that O can support me too. hahaha.. i feel like i was in dream land gg to la la la .. hee :P
Haiz.. these few days i have been camping at home most of the time to do my project.. project.. project.. at least i managed to squeeze out 8 layout and hotel's logo and name.. a sense of satisfaction... i realise at the blink of my eyes.. EXAMS is COMING !!! stress.. my final year exams.. determined whether i can grad or not.. *pray Hard*
seriously i dont know what is wrong with kaya.. suddenly say weird things to me.. dont know is real or joke but i took it as joke... he call me today... say weird things again...
recently, the should i or should i not wirl up again in my mind... i dont really kno w what to do.. or shld i say i am a big retarded silly girl when i met with feelings matter.. ar.. feelings are not thinking cant really control them...but since i make up my decision so i shld follow wisely.... yah.. i must fulfil it... as i was watching the 9pm show... the yi xin and guo bin was arch head enemy den slowly become somesort like buddy and yi xin fallen in love with her so called "buddy" but she scare of reject so she keep avoiding guo bin.. till guo bin realise he also like yi xin and confess to her.. so sweet.. i really hope that i can be like yi xin wor..
i realise buddy pooh is a Mr Nice Guy to me... cox he let everyone depend on him.. those who need him can all depend on him.. so great.. the way he treat his buddy also nice... i feel that.. even IF i like him also wont work out.. so be BUDDY!!! i hv to convince myself that he is MY BUDDY!! i keep thinking what shld i do... to like or to gv up.. finally today i made a decision.. i decided to gv up and be remain as what we are - BUDDIES!!!! after today i will try not to think of lun .. he is MARRIED... OTHER PPL HUSBAND!!!! and dont think too much out of buddy pooh.. cox we are buddy that all.. n that kaya.. haiz... must focus on my exams now...
stupid kaya... skin so thick.. always sweet talk me.. always say those lalala things to me.. -.- seriously, i dont believe what he say to me.. haha..
Finally... managed to changea new skin.. previous skin abit erm... hee XD
The moment i saw this skin.. i fall in love with it.. dont know why.. i like the colours too.. it makes me sip sip with my blog.. hahaha...
