Today after finishes my IS mi, jj and ws stay back to wait for en en.... the 2 gers were taking pics and they will enjoying themselves alot... then we found ourselves seats and i sat beside ws... and there was one moment, i lie on ws shoulder... and suddenly, it feel so much like lun shoulder... it was a steady, comfortable shoulder. once lying on that shoulder, i thought it could be the best shoulder for me... and the memories just rushes back... jus suddenly feel like crying..
i always thought i am already ok... yah.. i am ok on the outsde bt iide... it is not d same anymore... i am those who is those very insecure person esp in r/s.. this r/s have make me even more insecure about my future r/s. i just found out that, i just really not a strong but timid girl. haha.. what is more funny is that, those words i say to encourage my friends.. i realise even myself cant really carry it out well. maybe i am a failure bah? or should i say... i am getting more and more worse... it just changes.. i dont have to motivation to do anything at all.. not really happy.. dont really eel like going anywhere including clubbing let alone drinking... dont know why.... all changes within such a short times.... could times really proves and washes away everything? even it does... there will be a unremovable scar isnt it?
