Haiz.. these few days i have been camping at home most of the time to do my project.. project.. project.. at least i managed to squeeze out 8 layout and hotel's logo and name.. a sense of satisfaction... i realise at the blink of my eyes.. EXAMS is COMING !!! stress.. my final year exams.. determined whether i can grad or not.. *pray Hard*

seriously i dont know what is wrong with kaya.. suddenly say weird things to me.. dont know is real or joke but i took it as joke... he call me today... say weird things again...

recently, the should i or should i not wirl up again in my mind... i dont really kno w what to do.. or shld i say i am a big retarded silly girl when i met with feelings matter.. ar.. feelings are not thinking cant really control them...but since i make up my decision so i shld follow wisely.... yah.. i must fulfil it... as i was watching the 9pm show... the yi xin and guo bin was arch head enemy den slowly become somesort like buddy and yi xin fallen in love with her so called "buddy" but she scare of reject so she keep avoiding guo bin.. till guo bin realise he also like yi xin and confess to her.. so sweet.. i really hope that i can be like yi xin wor..

i realise buddy pooh is a Mr Nice Guy to me... cox he let everyone depend on him.. those who need him can all depend on him.. so great.. the way he treat his buddy also nice... i feel that.. even IF i like him also wont work out.. so be BUDDY!!! i hv to convince myself that he is MY BUDDY!! i keep thinking what shld i do... to like or to gv up.. finally today i made a decision.. i decided to gv up and be remain as what we are - BUDDIES!!!! after today i will try not to think of lun .. he is MARRIED... OTHER PPL HUSBAND!!!! and dont think too much out of buddy pooh.. cox we are buddy that all.. n that kaya.. haiz... must focus on my exams now...

stupid kaya... skin so thick.. always sweet talk me.. always say those lalala things to me.. -.- seriously, i dont believe what he say to me.. haha..