now is 4.52am and i still at mac... kaya pei me go mac find woan woan at 1.30am...i really appreciate kaya pei me in the wee hours of the morning.......he really beri nice.. walk to my house and help me carry heavy laptop to pioneer mall find woan woan.....hee.. then at mac.. we were slacking den kaya went to order 1 dbl cheese burger and apple pie... den he treat me apple pie.. so touched.. haha.. den he go on asking me want eat ? wan eat? and so i gv in.. i eat kaya de dbl cheese burger after eating the apple pie.. den i tell kaya i wan eat fries and nuggets.. so he went to order a nuggets meal upsize and one more dbl cheese burger... haha.. i ate so much and kaya was so shocked that i am such big eater... after eating... i and kaya talk abt many things.. many many things...

this is my blog... i really wan to write abt how i feel but somehow... i cant blog what i really feel le.. sian... think shld open another blog for myself.. one blog is for happy stuffs, and the other blog is for thoughts and sad stuffs. hahaha..while talking to kaya..... suddenly, that feeling come again... i was tired i think becox i was too tired so i suddenly think of him again... look back the past.. the sour feels again... and think abt the present... sense of security - what i lack of.... i am somehow afraid.. but i don know what my fear is about... i dont know how to say it... erm...kaya say i still love him alot but i dont feel that i love him alot or wad.... jus don love him anymore..REALLY!!!!! i already PUT DOWN!!!!!!! becox i scare the history repeat itself....... get wad i mean? when i think of what happen.. so sad... hao bu rong yi de lai de kuai le wo bu xiang shi qu... yah... hahaha.. kaya is massaging for me... and he keep asking me to call him rain.. oh RAIN.. RAIN RAIN GO AWAY COME BACK ANOTHER DAY!!! HAHAHA... his massaging SUCK@!@ that is better.. haha... THANKS TO KAYA!! OPPS IS RAIN!!! HAHAHA... i will upload a pic of mr kaya later xD xie xie for accompanying me the whole night and morning... hahaha....